Wednesday, 25 May 2016

CHANGE

"How do you change? And when?"

The first thing I did was fully pray 5 times a day.
And I was 15 years old. 
I realise,  since that time,  I got friends who always remind me of
Islamic things...
Then I start to stop having special relationship with the boys.
I mean,  no texting,  calling,  etc. 
Just classmates,  hostelmates...  Blablamates.. 
Not more than that.
After 3 years (more less),  I start fully cover myself.,
I change how I dress and how I wear my hijab, 
And now,  I almost 20 years old, 
I am still tested with two out of three things mentioned above..
(much more challenging)
The reason is,  during my highschool and matric life,
I was surrounded by people that always remind me of
those things... 
Its not hard when do it in collective way.
People always said,  university life will give culture shock and
Everything will be different.
Now,  I admit that. 
They say,  find a group (usrah),  to avoid that culture shock
But still, situation is really different,  and its hard. 
So,  I can say that changing is a process and
it can stop anytime,
Change direction anytime.
The most important thing is at the end of this life.
Doesn't matter what kind of muslim you are, 
But the things that will take into account is
HOW WE END THIS LIFE. 
Which is no one know WHEN.... 

Thursday, 12 May 2016

HIM

When you watch people around you,
and you're not comfortable.
you start thinking,
and say,
"just HIM"
yes. just HIM
and all people who close with HIM.

Every second in life,
you want only HIM,
as your everything.
just HIM that can change every
part of your life,
give everything that is good
for both your
worldly life and hereafter.

You stop
valuing everything from a human perspective
only want HIS perspective
HIS judgement
HIS words

but,
you are not strong enough
to follow HIS orders
to remind others
about HIS existence
to learn more
about HIS words
to walk to
HIS "house"
everyday...

but yet, you still think ONLY HIM

you start planning
planning and planning again.
although you keep failing,
you just keep planning.

PRAY EARLY
MAKE DU'A
READ QURAN
FAST
BE KIND
BE PATIENT
BE GRATEFUL

then, you realize,
something wrong with your plan
you forget things you should stop

STOP HURTING OTHERS
STOP ANGRY
STOP COMPLAINT
STOP ACT SHAMELESS
STOP BEING  SELFISH
STOP WASTING TIME

to do all these alone
is hard,

-but the reward is not comparable with what you done.
and the ultimate reward is MEETING HIM,
in blessing.